Nostalgic....Back to College

It was one of those days when you just wish that it continues to eternity. Days, which in some ways make you nostalgic and bring with them all the emotions and memories of the past.

It was my friend Tamseen's marriage that I attended a couple of days ago. After long years I met many of my buddies from college. A lot has changed from then to now, our paths became very divergent. Everyone had a different story to tell. Some of them were married themselves, some were in love and some ready to make a vow. But then, for those few hours the world just stopped for us, to be together, to go back to the good old days, those sweet little chats, hanging around and buncking classes.

I realized how far we've come in these few years. Some became closer, some were so distant that we needed something like this to bond us together and realize how precious we were for each other. We talked & talked and talked for hours, and when it was time to part, I still felt the same pain we had on the day we completed our college to get into this new world.

We made plans to keep in touch, get together for an outing, or atleast hang around when we're in the same place. I just wish all this continues, and our liking for each other stays forever.

-- For all the friends who made me feel special, and who've always been with me throughout the thick and thin of my life. I love you all & miss you :(

End : As a beautiful beginning!!!

What if the most dreadful thing in our life turns out to be a wonderful experience??
A different take on something most of us fear!!!

"***All my loved ones are around me...crying. Tears in their eyes, with a lot of love for me. I looked up to see where I am. Felt so wonderful for being so free. And a little bit pity for my loved ones. For they don't realize I am already on my way to a new experience. Floating in the wind, one with the sun & the moon, and all that is. With an unlimited power to create anything in a blink of an eye. What a wonderful experience, for I just couldn't explain how complete I feel. With a complete strength to move mountains, and to be with anyone just by wishing.

I wish I could say something to them, to make them happy. And explain the real fun of being where I am. I wish I could share this wonderful moment with all of them and make them smile again, then and there. For they have a purpose to be here, and enjoy the way they are. I still couldn't stop a part of me, being with them in their sorrow. Nonetheless, it's all for me, they feel. I don't need it, for I've moved on, and am begining to create the new world. And am already immersed in it. So, just wish that they forget all this, get going & enjoy life***"

For, "Death is not just an end, but a more beautiful beginning to a grander dream, and a grander creation".

-- A tribute to my granny who's one of the most loving person I know. We all miss you nanamma...but I think you're fine and happy :-)

Circles of Life

Life seems to be going in circles all the while. Just like the science classes we had as students. "Looks to be the same", is the thought which always crossed our minds. But, when we listen carefully, there's always something new in every class. Maybe that's what stretching our limits looks like. In a subtle way, we get used to what we always felt was right. And then, grow from there to new realities and knowledge. Not that this is the only way to go about, but the way most of us choose to. Or rather programmed to choose. Nevertheless, it's cool this way too.

The way we look at something moving in a spiralled coil. Look from the top, and it's always like moving in the same circle. And that's how we see life as, most of the time. We keep encountering the same situations, same people, same outcomes time and again in our life. But when we change our perspective, and look at the coil from the side, it's all clear that we're all moving in a new direction every moment. Maybe, that's what having a broader mind is all about. And that's the dictomy and beauty of the life too. As both the perspectives are true, and both are real. It's the perspective we choose that matters. And it need not be a constant either. As both are equally important in their own ways. Like it's said, "A leader should have both the birds-eye-view, and at the same time be able to "look into the details" of things. It's a balance of both the things which makes it wonderful.

Well, there's a third way, which we do naturally. After you reach a certain point, uncoil the path, and you find a straight line, showing the distance you travelled, and all the experiences in it. Maybe, this is what introspection is all about. We look at where we've reached, and realize that it's all so perfectly designed. Every experience we've had, is the only way it could have happened. And that gives a new perspective to the journey ahead.

Nothing is more, or less important. Having all the ways, makes the process complete and wonderful.

'Peace march' for the 26/11 victims.

The Eternal Living.

The mind is a very funny thing. It keeps on roaming, sometimes here sometimes there. Sometimes in the past, and then into the future. And it more than often manages to keep us in a virtual world. After all, it's all a roller coaster ride that takes place away from the reality.

So, what is this reality all about? When we realize it seems so simple. And yes, reality is of course, very simple. And that's THE NOW. The change we want in our lives can be made only in the now. And if we can see this reality of life, it's just that easy and simple. Yes....?? It appears very obvious. But how many times do we go round and round, going on & on about something that happened in the past? Continuously thrashing our mind in a lost battle trying to change things already happened. And how many times do we keep on worrying about something to come in the future. We see time as a one-dimensional entity, moving on from past to present, then to future. And imagine present to be in between the two. But in reality, there's no life in the past, or in the future. The past is already dead, and the future is still not conceived. The history was only the present in the past, and the future comes to life only as a present.

Once we go beyond these, and start being totally aware every moment, then that is LIFE & that is LIVING. Maybe it's the ability to leave the past, and stop worrying about the future that makes us ETERNAL. The life starts flowing. We can still plan for the future, and learn from the past, but by enjoying everything in the present. In the present they're no worries, no tensions, no guilt, no fear. It's just being. Every moment manifests itself before us. And it's just a flow where everything starts happening instantaneously. You never go after anything in your mind. Life comes to a still. They'll not be that constant urge to become something or to go after something. You realize that you're already everything. And you just need to express it in every moment. And then they'll not be any ordinary moments. Every moment is wonderful and precious. You can feel the manifestation of every moment as the universe changes itself. You become so alert that, you can hear, see, feel everything around you.

There are glimpses of this living in every individual. In different times, there is this FLOW, when things just happen without any interference. When we can do nothing wrong. Everything happens in an automatic mode. Maybe when we're playing, singing, dancing, creating, playing a musical instrument, or anything that we love doing heartily. Maybe because, every being is eternal, and there's no way but to show itself, at least in flashes. We say, we were in a trance or, were totally involved. But, what if life itself flows like that, with such a total involvement and timelessness???

Let's have some Music!!! Sa...Re....

I never know whether I am qualified enough to write about something as great as this. Music... remember!!!, is always compared to ocean by all the pundits and greats in the field. I was always a little bit awed by this kind of comparision. Thought that...maybe it's their humility in saying that.

But now that I am making my first little steps into the world of music, I realize how vast it is, and even a comparision to an ocean is not enough. Music in itself is a different world, so intriguing, so wonderful, complex and yet, accomodates everyone into it. It's something of an infinite energy into which every one can take a dip and make their own creation out of it. And if that's not possible, everyone can see into it, and find their own emotions reflecting in it. Whether your glad, happy, sad.... Music is a companion which makes you experience your self which many are afraid to do.

The most fascinating part is that the entire music..........whatever we hear, whether it's pop, jass, hindustani, the sounds of nature...literally anything in nature comes from only the seven sounds Sa, Re, Ga, Ma, Pa, Da, Ni. That's just amazing to know. And when I was just thinking that this would make it easy to learn, I was told that "to just be able to know and understand one sound in all it's forms, it would take a lifetime". I never know whether we'd ever be able to taste atleast a drop of this ocean, but when we see the devotion with which the great musicians perform, it definetly strikes that, it's so very true....It takes a lifetime to reach there.

Whatever....whether it's tough or easy, beautiful or absurd, all we want is something which comforts us at different times depending on the mood we're in. Whether I am learning or not, I am listening to music with more interest for sure. And all the poets' passionate expressions of "singing birds", "music in the air", "sounds of the ocean".....are more vibrant now.

It's been a wonderful journey till now. Thanks to my teacher Mr. Tabun, it's been music with lots of fun. Not sure how much time we can spare in future, whether we'll be able to find time at all.......As of now it's really exciting to let ourselves flow in a different vein, away from all the chaos of the day which are already part of our lives......

So, let's hear to the more subtle sounds in our life....in the nature.....Who knows, there may be a wonderful composition just round the corner waiting for you to listen....
And never forget to JUST ROCK!!!

Why you made me like this............?

"I go through this everyday. Wait for the night, and the light in it. Where day is considered the good, life & happiness, my life dwells on the night. I too wait for the light, but which is artificial. To find the prey and feed my stomach. What else can I do....?? I don't have any other choice.....

I am considered as dirt. People wash-off if I fall on them. They think I am a bad omen. Children get scared when they look at me. They consider I am cruel when I try to find my prey and get it. And inhuman when we fight among ourselves for the only meal left for that night. Yes, it is inhuman to say. But, maybe those little minds don't understand that it's all for my survival I do this.

Even I never like eating up a lovely butterfly which spreads joy & happiness all around with it's colourful wings. It cries and begs me to leave, when I hold it with my teeth, and crush it's head between my jaws. Only I can hear that cry, and feel the pain along with it.
God....why did you made me so cruel that no one, not even these innocent minds like me, and even dread me......And you didn't even gave me any other choice to make my living without killing others. Oh.....maybe you made humans for that, gave them mind so that they can think....and live without killing.

Teach these children to grow as human, and be human. As these beautiful minds don't hear the cry and know the pain like me when they're having, and they get used to it so much that, by the time they know, it is too late to change......"

Maybe these lizards too have heart & think like this............
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& Maybe this is what happened with us too when we were children.............???